What 2 do?

Blog It or Not...

I always maintain my principle that if you want to do something, either you do it to your best or not do it at all. There's no point doing a half job as it does not achieve anything and will only come back and haunt someone else if not you.

So, the decision is to go or not to go. I will usually make some critical thinking and list down all the facts with the pros & cons to aid my decision making. This template for making decision usually work for most but not some. I do not put feelings when I make decisions. I use the most logical and practical thinking.

Recently, there are multiple decisions to be made and I'm glad that most of them that I made had turned out fine. GOOD DECISIONS! haha. There are still a few outstanding decisions to be made and perhaps those with a heavier impact if the decision is not sound.

As per what I had learnt in OCS, "A bad decision is better than no decision." This is what pushes me to make decisions everytime. Hahaha. My decisions are usually and mostly part of a bigger picture which is called "A Plan" I always plan & plan & plan & plan.... I believe that a person's plan can fail but they should never fail to plan. Hehe. Lots of Jasunzlogy coming out again.

I'm glad I always think a few steps ahead of things and think of all the possible outcomes that might arise. It is also from here that I'm able to predict and prepare myself for what might be coming. Like what happened last Saturday when Dennis & Me went Sentosa. After all the happenings, we finally could proceed to Sentosa and I told Dennis that after all that had happen, it might just rain and we cannot go again. He gave me the disbelieving look + -_-"' look. My explaination is that I'm just preparing him for the worst that might happen so that when it really happens, he will be prepared for it. He gave me -_-"' + -_-"'.... hahaha...

I'm a strong believer of Murphy's Law and 3 laws I like are:

1) What can go wrong will go wrong.

2) When there are 5 or 6 things that can go wrong, the one with the worst impact will occur.

3) When you prepare a plan for the 5 situations that might go wrong, a 6th situation will appear.

Hahaha. I'm not a pessimistic person. I just like to be prepared and not caught with my pants down.

That's about all for now! Cheers!

Quote: "To will is to select a goal, determine a course of action that will bring one to that goal, and then hold to that action until the goal is reached. The key is action." ~Michael Hanson

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~

JasunZ Without Wax

Bad Mon Day!

Bad start to Monday Blogging!

This should be the 2nd post for the day considering that I made a long post in the wee hours of the morning.

Bad bad start. I can't really consider it a bad start but just not to my liking. Moral of the story again is "What you don't know won't hurt you" The problem perhaps is that humans are born with curiousity. Without it, I don't think we will have lightbulbs and planes flying around.

I had just condemmed another person. Sentenced to life imprisionment by the Law of J. The trail had been ongoing but finally today the sentence is passed. Why do people and things change so fast and unexpected? - Discuss.... Haha. Might be a possible exam question huh.

After I finished bloggin the previous post, I only slept at 4.30am after much tossing and turning. Tonight will be another long long night as I will be heading down to Kallang Mac for the Marketing Research project again. Should only be done around 2 to 3 am. Phew...

I just don't feel good. Heart is sick but the mind is still fine. Its good that I think more with my mind than my heart. If you think with your heart it more likely that you will get hurt. Hahaha.

Shall keep this short. Anyway, I made another decision. I'm going to make a comeback... what comeback? Time will tell everything...

Cheers!

Quote: "Our attitudes control our lives. Attitudes are a secret power working twenty-four hours a day, for good or bad. It is of paramount importance that we know how to harness and control this great force." ~Tom Blandi

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~
JasunZ, Without Wax

Pouring Thoughts...

Lets blog about it with a heavy heart...

Time: 2.24am, 25th May 2007 Monday

I can't get to sleep. Kind of disturbed by the happenings around me for the past one week.

Friends getting car accidents like twice in 2 weeks, people falling in love and also out of it. Friends and close ones getting hurt. How can I sleep? So many things and thoughts going on in my head right now.

Whenever I try to rest my mind and fall into slumber, I just keep thinking. Perhaps I'm becoming more and more or a thinker. Good or Bad, no one knows. Who can really understand a fool's happiness? I would think that it will take a fool to understand and experience it.

When was I last really happy myself? Doesn't really register in my mind for the past 2 years at least. Been too busy with myself and also the stuff of others. Perhaps sometimes I see my past suffereings in them.

When I felt that way in the past, I had not one to turn to. I did not know what to know, a complete lost and lonely person. I managed to pick myself up after many knocks I had on the way up. Some of the knocks I received while trying to get myself up were harder than the rest. But still, I got up. I wouldn't say that I had fully stood up but I'm almost there.

There are times when I'm almost up only to be brought down again. A friend told me this quote from the show "ROCKY"

"Its not how hard you can hit but how hard you can take being hit and stand up when you think you can't..."

Inspiring ain't it. But of course I didn't pull myself base on this quote but it would had helped if I had know this quote much earlier. Although I had suffered and work hard to get myself back to where I am now, it had not been easy. I'm always on a constant lookout for things that will hurt me and make me fall again so that I will not go through the vicious cycle again.

I wouldn't blame anyone for what had happened. I'm glad that it happened and I was able to overcome it. What didn't kill me only made me stronger. Perhaps this is also a reason why when I see or sense people going through what I had been through before, I want to help them.

The pain of suffering is bad enough, lest to say suffer alone. God didn't create human. He created humans so that we can lean on and support each other in times when we are down. Humans are weak by nature and on one can live on his/her own. I tried it for a while and trust me. It SUCKS!

Choices comes to us almost everyday and to many other people as well. The difference is the decision that one makes. As I mentioned before, for every decision made, there will be a consquence. Prior to making a decision, an important aspect to note will be to consider if that individual making the decision is able or ready to accept whatever consquences that might result from that decision.

Decision do in fact alter a person's life and steer it in another direction that might not find itself back on the same path again. Perhaps by sheer chance, the paths might meet again but things will never be the same. Some decision do not impact, others does and it is important that we make right those decisions that does.

I'm just having so much thoughts in my mind that I need to pen it down. I'm afraid that I will forget them someday. At least should I lose it, I'm able to read it again.

While I'm blogging now, I listening to my favorite song. "The Sassy Girl" Seems long some may say. Its a Korean show from 3 years ago. But, it leave a deep impact on me. It reminds me.... of someone. I still like the song so much. I just simply feel for it. Whenever I listen to it, thoughts and feelins just flows out from me.

Perhaps I'm now crapping on this post or at least some people may think so. I don't care. Sometimes, I read the blogs of random strangers and some of their post just manage to bring me up when I'm down. I hope that mine will be able to help someone, even one.

I really can't sleep...

Time: 2.46am, 25th June 2007 Monday

22 minutes of my life had just past as I was blogging. 22 minutes that will never ever come back ever again. This is just Life. No matter what you do, be it happy or sad, Life still goes on and the time of the world just ticks by without a care for what is happening. So why not live happily?

I was sharing with another friend why I like to look at stars or moon when I'm feeling down. Sometimes, it just comforts you so much to know that while you are looking that the moon feeling sad, someone else at another part of the world might just be doing likewise with the same feelings. Perhaps it just brings a certain kind of comfort knowing that you are not alone. Humans are really afriad of being alone. I'm human after all...

Think I had wrote enough of feelings for this post. I'm not going to do any coloring or fonting to this post. Feelings are things written by the heart and need no colors to make them felt. It can just simply be felt. The thoughts of the author.... me.

That's all for now. I'm not too sure what I'm going to do since I'm not a bit tired and my mind is still very much awake. Yet another obstacle to pass. I can.

Quote: "A man is not old until regrets take the place of dreams." ~John Barrymore

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~
JasunZ, Without Wax

Mood Swingsssssssssss

Blogging again!

I'm having mood swings again... and again.... and again.... and again.... Haiz.

A mood swing is an extreme or rapid change in mood. It is commonly associated with mood disorders of which the most classic is bipolar disorder or manic depression. Causes of mood swings are due to hormonal changes that can temporarily upset brain chemistry. Some examples are PMS, menopause or puberty. Mood swing generally subside on their own once the hormones normalize.

Shit!

My cause of mood swing can't be due to PMS and I dun think I will menopause at my age and I'm definately way past puberty.

What is happening to me?

Seems like I have very frequent hormonal changes. Perhaps I'm horny! hahaha. Rubbish... I believe mood swings are also cause by the surrounding and thinking of the person. Perhaps, if there is enough brain activity in the person, there is a possibility of the brain controling the hormonal changes. So, at the end of the day, the moral of the story is not to think so much! Hahaha...

Lets digress...

Went out yesterday with Eric, Nic & Joey to Rochor Bean Curd. After that we went to Labador Park to chat and Andy joined us. Was relaxing and nice. Didn't stay out too late as we were all tired. Wanted to watch some TV when I reach home but was to sianz and tired to do it and hit the sack immediately.

Going back...

I was thinking why I had that sudden mood swing yesterday and I think I might have found the reason.

"Your coldness had pierce me once again. I sometimes wonder if what had happened was all but a dream. A dream that had became a nightmare for me. Perhaps the dream only existed in my part of the world and never yours. How fast things change in life. Our lives are like 2 paths pependicular to each other that crossed each other once and perhaps never to cross again. I had tried to bend the path at least on my side in order to meet yours again but as mentioned, it always takes 2 hands to clap and my lone effort is of little use when you always seem to be moving ever so much further away. I shall recover and try again like what I had been doing for the past 3 yrs...."

That's all.

Quote: "The world cares very little about what a man or woman knows; it is what a man or woman is able to do that counts." ~ Booker T. Washington

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~
JasunZ, Without Wax

The Hard Truth

Panic Blogging!

I just looked at my office calendar and panic for a moment.

My EXAMS are next Friday and the following Monday. OMG! Time flies fast. Guess the best part. I haven't studied for it yet! To add on to all this, I do not have any mood to study! Hahaha.

Die. I getting "nua-er" with each passing semester. The good thing is that I only have one more semester before I graduate. Phew. This is the only relief that I can hold on to.

So many things happen to my friends recently and I feel sad about it as well. Life is really so unpredictable and humans are one main cause for it.

What is trust? I believe trust is something that comes along with Love. Once the trust is breeched, it is always so difficult to gain it back and in no time, Love will deplete and cease to exisit. Sad fact but it is true.

Feeling kind of down recently as well but not too sure why. Perhaps it is just another of my mood swings. Ahhh... My mood swings are back again. This means I'm feeling something somewhere again. mmm... gotta get out of this mood swing soon or it will affect my exams for sure.

Not going to blog much in this post just wanted to share some thoughts.

Cheers for now!

Quote: "Success... it's what you do with what you've got." ~ Leroy Van Dyke

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~
JasunZ, Without Wax

Another Night Out

Lets blog it!

Hey hey... I'm blogging again. Whats new? Anyway just writting about the stuff I had been doing recently until last night.

So, I had 2 Sundays of Sentosa where the frisbee really did us proud. Last sunday was no difference. The only difference is that our throwing range got further & further. I'm sure we got some fans just sitting there watching us play. Haha. Cool.

Monday was prawning nite again and this time Dennis and Yiling came along and Yiling kind of was the more enthu person in prawning.

Last nite was at Amber 21 for Nicole and Andy bdae celebration. Was fun and there were a total of 21 pax in our group. Wah! Was doing guard duty to ensure the fun wasn't spolit. Haha. Anyway, will post pics soon.

Reason why my posting are without pics recently is due to the fact that I bought a new lappie and haven't installed Adobe Photoshop. Actually I had but I do not have the CD key. Hence can't do much of editing. Hehe.

Lets digress into other stuff...

Life has been more exciting recently. Expanding my group of friends and being more friendly. Erm as if I wasn't last time. Actually, I don't really have much to blog about but I felt like blogging. Perhaps I really need to find a topic to blog about. Right now, brain a bit fried after doing too much thinking after thinking after thinking. Too much analysing. Arggh!

Exams are coming pretty soon as in like 2 weeks time so gotta start revising if I want to get my distinctions again else, just play.... hahaha....

Going to have tutorials tonite and perhaps I will head straight home and have an early nite. Been kind of tired recently slping at 3am everytime.

I'm really running out of stuff to blog so I shall stop for now. If there is any interesting topics to dicuss, do let me know.

Cheers!

Quote: "Some men have thousands of reasons why they cannot do what they want to, when all they need is one reason why they can." ~ Willis Whitney

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~
JasunZ, Without Wax

The Long Awaited Post!

Its really time to blog…

Wooo… been a long long time since I last did any blogging. Apologise for the long lapse in posting. Really lost quite a fair bit of urge to blog. That with some added on laziness equals to no post for a long time.

Lets just do a bit of update.

The last post I made was on 10th April 2007. Wah. Didn’t realize my level of laziness until now. During my last post, I was still with OCBC bank. Currently, I had joined Elsevier Singapore for 1 month now and it doesn’t seem long to me at all. Perhaps coz I’m enjoying what I’m doing and being able to go home early for dinner and still earning enough to feed myself.

Although I left the bank, I still keep very in touch with my ex-colleagues. They are really a bunch that breathe new life into me. Remove a fair bit of my “nua-ness”

Recently, we had activities like bowling, steamboating and even went Pl Ubin to cycle and eat seafood. Weee. Life is good huh. Actually Pl Ubin was only like last Saturday and my ass was super tired after the cycle. To make things even worse, I went Sentosa on Sunday with Dennis and Yiling.

Had lots of fun at Sentosa just playing Frisbie. Our Super Ring did us proud again. We started playing at 2.30pm and by 2.35pm (Yes you are right only 5 mins), we lost our frisbie to the sea again. Tired to look for it but as usual, we never manage to. In the end, both of us drove out of Sentosa to buy a new one again. Haha. Mad Asses!

Lets digress…

Exams are approaching I’m just so happy. Can’t wait for the next semester to arrive as that would be my last 3 months. Already did a forecast for the grand celebration date and that’s not my graduation date. It’s the moment of time when I hand in my last exam paper for this part time studies. 24th September 2007 4.00pm…. or earlier. Hahaha. (Note: I never finsh my exam paper on time. I usually hand in at least 30mins before time. Dun be late mah! Haha)

Tracking Back….

I’m still doing my weekly routine of prawning on Monday Nights with Jimmy and now I’m adding on another weekly activity.

Islanding

Erm… came out with this term like… 3 seconds ago. Going to resume the weekly Sentosa thingy like I did 2 yrs back. Its feel real great to throw the frisbie on the beach and have those around you stare with their mouth wide open and mumble underneath their breaths like….

“That was damm far…” ~Some unknown Ah Beng on the beach

“Wow.. How did they do that? They gotta be pros…” ~An unknown Ah Lian besides the Ah Beng

“We gotta buy that frisbie…” ~Some unimportant individual on the beach


Hahaha. I’m Lovin’ It! (Note again: This is not the Mac Donalds line)


Ok. Next topic.

I had decided to go on a backpacking trip after my final exams in September. Not going Europe. Had been wanting to go Cambodia and Sentosa… (pui) I mean Vietnam for a long time. (I guess I think too much about Sentosa le) Wish to go these 2 countries to experience the life there and perhaps gain some enlightenment after observing the simple life of others. Perhaps this will help me appreciate Life even more. There have been a few people applying to go along. Not to worry. The enrolment is still open for application. Hahaha. Lamb….

This next section is just some updates of friends I had made during the first half of the year….

Jimmy
My Prawn Brother who lured me into the prawning industry. Hahaha. A great fellow with a big heart. He live with 2 motto: “Live Life Happily” and “Bu Yao Hai Ren” (Don’t harm others)

Joey Fam
Some people call her mummy, others call her Ms Mor. Coz she damm can take her time to slowly do things. Haha. There is this unique point about her. Usually Drinks and Always Drunk. Hahaha.

Hazel Lim
Ah Ma. Always say that she is 75 yrs old. She is a pro at poking her own hair. She just does that funnie twist to the hair and poke a pencil or pen through it to hold the hair up. (Others usually use a nice hair pin, she uses anything that can stick into it)

Nicole
My darling Mei Mei. Not really sure of the history why I became the Kor Kor and her the mei mei. But she is a hell of a sunshine ger whose smile can melt both North and South pole. (Likes to pretend to be Rainie Yang while singing... oops...)

The F4 Gang (I know its lame)
This F4 is of course not the one in Meteor Garden (Liu Xing Hua Yuan) coz we are better than them. Haha. The 4 of us are Andy, Eric, Kelvin and ME!

Eric Heng (Hua Ze Lie)
Also known as “Heng Heng Kopitiam” He is the youngest among us and when he doesn’t talk or smile, looks damm “tau” (Mmm.. got a bit of rhyme leh…) Looks a bit Ah Beng (A bit is definitely an understatement here) but he is actually a nice guy with a kind heart. (That’s when he is not angry or driving) Haha…

Kelvin Phuah (Mei Zhuo)
Ok. Got to clarify. He doesn’t have long hair. He is just one day younger than me. Haha. Like me, he is a Scorpio. Like me, he came from PICO doing Events. Like me… erm.. that’s pretty much it. He is one kind of a funnie guy and he can really drink and he is MAD! Who organizes a drinking party at a friends house where like 7 to 8 person finish like 10 bottles of liquor. He is the kind… (*points to Kelvin) Used to call him “Mr Properly” as he always says that out.

Andy Lim (Ximen)
Not coz he thinks that girls can only last for 1 week. Its more like girls think he can only last for a week. Hahaha. No Lar. We sometimes call him "Sorry Sorry" due to a freak incident at one of our function at Chjimes where he was “sabo-ed” to do some dirty dancing with a hot chick. He kept saying sorry everytime he touch the girl and the girl was of course & perhaps a bit turned off. He always eats and eats and eats and eats... arggh.. even I'm tired typing... He is also known as the Vegetable Man. Not coz he is vegetarian but coz he got lots of “cai” (Gers) ranging up to 275 now. (Do I hear some wow…..)

Jason Leng (Daoming Si)
They sometimes call me “Len Sian Sheng” (Mr Cold) not because I am but coz of my initials “S O Leng” (Like So Cold) Damm… constantly made fun of. Erm…. Feels kind of weird writing about yourself so I shall stop although there are still tons of positive points about myself…. Hahaha…


Yupz yupz. That basically sums up my partners in crime for the first part of the year.

Hope this long post make up for the laziness and I will be more consistent in posting. I actually had the strong urge to share my thoughts in the blog but was just to lazy. I recently realize the value of blogging where I can go to my archives and search for the very same day 2 years ago and find out how I was feeling or what I did back then.. Ain’t it cool… So Blog more….

That’s about all for now.

Cheers!

Quote: "If you're climbing the ladder of life, you go rung by rung, one step at a time. Don't look too far up, set your goals high but take one step at a time. Sometimes you don't think you're progressing until you step back and see how high you've really gone." ~ Donny Osmond

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~

JasunZ, Without Wax