I'm Sorry Again.

I definately need to blog.

Hihi everyone! So sorry I didn't blog for such a long time. Lots of stuff had been happening and I just lost the mood to blog. As I always think to myself. Never blog for the sake of blogging alone.

Blogging for me is to relieve stress. Let myself, my thoughts and my feelings out. It's a avenue for me to release myself to who might read it.

I thank you guys for staying around and for those whom I do not know. Thanks alot once again. Now, let's save all those mushy stuffs and update.

God! My last post was actually 7th Dec 2006. Haiz. It's been a really long long time boy. Perhaps it will be good to start with Christmas...


Christmas!
To me, Christmas means alot. Christmas is the time to giving and shower care & love to people close to me. I'm glad I did that this year and did it fufillingly. I accompanied a friend at hospital and while lotsa people are getting wasted at clubs with all booze and music (not that it is wrong), I was in the peace and tranquinity of the hospital wards. I didn't do much as I'm not medically trained but I felt that just being there physically present, I just wanted to show moral and mental support.

To me, that's the least I can do in the spirit of Christmas. To find back the meaning and feeling of giving again this Christmas had really been real nice. It's indeed one of the best Christmas I had ever and I mean it.

Let's digress.

NEW JOB!
Joined a new company or I wouldn't actually call it a company. It's a bank, OCBC Bank. So far, all colleagues and bosses had been really nice. Hence, although the environment & KPIs are stressful for me, I'm kind of able to push myself and constantly motivate myself. I'm actually in Enterprise Banking doing Unsecured Business Term Loans or so called "Legal Loanshark". Haha. Sounds cool huh... (We only send electronic pig head... cut cost mah...)

Let's go back to more serious stuffs.


NEW YEAR!!
I had been really a good boy. I didn't club or booze at all. I went for a church countdown and all was was inspiring and touching. It was a good change. Perhaps I'm getting older and becoming more mature (Ah Pek) in thinking. My goals and piorities in life had changed and with every passing year, it's getting more and more crucial.


My Thoughts...
I had been thinking... I am starting to lead a socially unbalanced life. As much as I can provide advice and so on in the name of Dr J, what had I done for myself. Perhaps this is the same problems faced by Surgeons that they can't operate on themself when they have health problems.

I'm actually starting to drift away from the social circles I used to be in. I actually lost a part of me. The part of me that so constantly love to be out there somewhere, conversing with people, sharing thoughts, sorrows & laughter. I miss it so much.

It's just like Opportunity Cost in Economics. If my current job or the activites causes me to lose time and energy over stuff that I used to love so much to do and still yearning to do, is it worth it to be in a good job yet lost so much a part of you that no amount of money can buy.

My opinion is that....

It ain't worth it at all!!!

Of course I'm not like going to give up on my job as of yet. The trick is to strike a balance in my life where I really plan my life really well. I think it will be a good learning experience once again even if I do not do it that sucessfully. Like I always would like to quote my friend...

"Everyday is a new learning day!"

Keep this in mind and life will be motivating and fufilling for you. Or at the least, this is what I feel and believe in.

So to do this, I will need to juggle my work, studies, friends and life at the same time. Phew... It is not going to be easy but I guess I got to do it.

Moving On...
This is one year where I had not really set much New Year Resolutions for myself. Kind of rare for me to do that though. Perhaps this is due to the fact that I'm not in the best frame of mind to set it and hence feel that it wouldn't make sense for me to set resolutions just for the sake of having one.

Right now, my piorities are to find back the old me first and keep motivating myself to drive on. The one new, all important word or slogan that I learnt from this new job is...

MOVE ON!!!

It's really important to move on after you encounter setbacks in life. If on stays in the same point of the setback, they will never recover... never become a better person. No worries. I had been through so many bad patches in my life and this current one will and definately shall be the same as well. I always remember this...

Yesterday was good.
Today is better than yesterday.
Tomorrow will definately be better than today.

What had passed is past.
What is today will be tomorrow's past.
What is tomorrow is yet to be the past.

I always say this to myself and look forward to the future no matter how bleak the present is. Whatever happens today had happened. When you slumber and wake again, it will be a brand new day with lots of excitement yet to come. It will definately be better.

Haha. So much of motivating stuff huh. I'm actually writting for a friend in hope that it may be read and will kind of help myself and help my friend at the same time. We all go through rough patches in life. It's how we survive it, learn from it and move on that determines our mettle and worth as an individual.

Just bear in mind. We are never alone in it. There are many helping hands around all waiting for you to reach out to them. All you got to do is to reach out...

I guess that's enough for now. It's getting really late and perhaps it's time to fall asleep and dream. Let's hope I have a good dream.

Nites....

Quote: "Yesterday is History. Tomorrow is Mystery. Today is a Gift. That's why we call it the Present!" ~From some unknow source again...

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~
JasunZ, Without Wax