The Power Of Expression

Wow...

Ever since I blog my thoughts and what had been tormenting me, I feel much better. Perhaps this is the power of expressing oneself.

Bottling up your thoughts and feelings doesn't really help in the long run. Only when you let out and let go go of some, will you have the capacity to accept and experience more.

Its just like what they say. You cannot fill a cup that is already full.

Right now, I'm in the process of change. Redirecting my life, accepting new challenges and setting new destinations.

Was watching Life Transformers on Channel 8 last night.

An 80 yr old Granny toiling her whole life to raise and provide for her kids who are sickly and mentally unsound. Living monthly on just $400 for all 3 of them. She go to the extent of buying fresh food for her kids but she will eat stale rice mixed with salt and sauce.

The Love a parent has for her children, no matter what or who they are.

During the show, I kept tearing. Partly because I feel sorry for them. Another reason is that I feel so gulity.

Here I am living a Life that is far better than the 3 of them and I still have complains. I really wish to start enjoying the simple pleasures in Life. I believe that pleasures as such bring about real happiness that touch the innermost of your heart.

I feel mich better now, even thou some hurt is still there when I think of the unthinkable. But, I will keep thinking about it to let it constantly hurt me, cutting my soul. It will reaxh a point where there will longer be anymore hurt. Then, I will emerge better than before.

Another Life's lesson learnt... Through trials and tribulations....

That's about it for now. Cheers!

Quote: "Love does not make the world go round but it makes the ride worthwhile."

I'm JasunZ, Without Wax ~ Since 1982

My Heart Died The Instance You Said Yes

Lets blog.

On the train now, on my way to work. Over the weekend, I had never felt the stronger urge to go back work on Monday.

Not looking forward to work due to some new chick in office or whatsoever. More so, it keeps my mind off thinking, grinding and churning which leads to pain.

My heart really stopped the moment you said YES....

Perhaps it is a fullstop in one part of my life. A punctuation in my life that had been long awaiting, long coming. There were lots of commas, exclaimation marks and long pauses in the story between you and me. But now, the fullstop had arrived, marked down in thick black ink. The feeling is like a pen tips piercing a deep black hole through my heart, my life.

A black hole that will consume me? I hope not...

It was 4th July 1999, a Monday. More than 10 years had passed since that fateful day. The day on which you sway into class in that white dress with matching white shoes, Gucci shades and bag. Its the same day that our story began....

By a stroke of fate, our lives crossed and moments shared which now will forever etch in my memory and I hope yours as well.

Its also this same fate that took us apart and yet keep the lines of our lives running parallel to each other, allowing us to see each other but never to cross again.

Many times had I tried to steer my line towarss yours. It seems to go nearer everytime but never reaching.

Now my line will cease and yours will continue. My line will one day restart somewhere or perhaps it will not for a long time.

I do not regret anything. For you, its worth it. Our paths crossing had been the most wonderful thing that had ever happen to me. I would even say that it had been a fairytale less the ending....

Happiness is now yours to keep and for me a new journey of seeking begins...

You had been a pillar and direction of my growth over the years. An unknown surge of energu for me.

I love you, always had and always will....

Quote: "A broken heart is one that had felt Love."

I'm JasunZ, Without Wax ~ Since 1982

Blogging once again

Hey hey, its me and im back to blogging after 2 years.

Was reading through some of my posts dated 2 yrs and thought to myself... "what the hell was I thinking when I wrote those stuff?"

Anyway, downloaded this iPhone app that allows me to blog on the go and thia encourages me to blog once again.

I should blog down my thoughts. At least there is some memories I can keep here before I forget or lose them someday.

Thats about it for a start now. Actually chilling at Canopy with Dennis now.

Cheers!

Quote: "Marriage is not about being compatible but about how you cope with incompatibility"

"Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer"

I'm JasunZ, Without Wax ~ Since 1982