Why?

When people around me are down and moody, I will be there....

I'm not expecting anything in return... Perhaps its just dumb of me to think that people treat me the same way I treat them.

Humans are selfish by nature. There is no care in this world. Care is only shown if there is no trade off on the givers end. If there is any compromise, its just too bad. Screw your own life and you just got to pull yourself out of that rut. Perhaps the next time, I will be there for you... This might be the reply I will get... Not literally hearing it but feeling the message...

Now, there is nothing left... You deserved it Jason!!! Fucking idiotic piece of shit and lowdown loser.. You are the one that screwed your own life...

Stop caring about others... Screw them if it benefits you... Since it had not worked for you for so many years... U should just wisen up and change how you handle your Life and others...

Perhaps, this should be the way... Fuck... Fuck my Life...

Quote: "You screwes your own life by being noce to others... Stop whining!"

I'm JasunZ, Without Wax ~ Since 1982

Placing others as a priority before self

I had Facebook-ed this topic a few days ago about my problem... If you call this a problem.

In my life and the way I live mine, unknowingly, I seem to think for others more than I think for myself.

I wanted to gather thoughts of others on this. One of my friends posted this: "JC (Jesus Christ) put others before himself and got screwed."

Not wrong thou and true enough although there is a tinge of question about the role of JC. But, I cannot compare myself yo God.

In my decisions in life, I keep people around me as a factor within the decision making process. I think how my decisions will impact them or make a difference in their lives. Perhaps I'm doing this because I simply do not wanr the guilt of screwing the lives of others if I had not done enough when a fool and idiocy of young I was.

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.... I'm just trying to atone for my past mistakes and sins. Hopefully through this, I will be able to gain some brownie points from the Master Karma and he will let me off lightly.

*cross fingers and pray...

The other day, I had this amazing self-actualisation about me being constantly mean to people around me even thou I do not mean it. I shared this with my friend and he was extremely amazed that I finally realised it after so many years. Thinking back, "extremely amazed" would be an understatement.

However, this topic of self-actualisation shall be for another day. This topic would bring about much points, views and arguements that makes it good enough for a P.H.D thesis.

Enough for now. Cheers!

Quote: "Being nice is an action taken by self, judged by others without any universal standards." ~ JasunZ

I'm JasunZ, Without Wax ~ Since 1982

Insanity

I think I'm going insane...

I think I'm one of the few that constantly reason and argue with myself. Constantly thinking about everything and anything.

Formula to insanity, there you go...

Every weekend that approaches is spare time for me to get in touch with the insane side of me; getting negative, emotional and moody.... for no rhyme or reason...

Excellent! That's a good start towards being truely insane.

I would like to think that I do not have split personality or wierd emotional mood swings. That's not true.

I had analysed and concluded that all these happen due to the fact that I think too much and too deeply into anything and everything and try to reason with myself to see different angles of looking at things.

Arggh! Can I stop thinking so much? I think its just me to do that...

Now on the way to work and having the kind of mixed feelings. Feeling glad that I have something to occupy my mind and sad coz I have less time to think and reason with myself...

See, thats insanity...

Cheers!

Quote: "Humans start becoming stupid the moment they stop thinking"

I'm JasunZ, Without Wax ~ Since 1982

Insanity

I think I'm going insane...

I think I'm one of the few that constantly reason and argue with myself. Constantly thinking about everything and anything.

Formula to insanity, there you go...

Every weekend that approaches is spare time for me to get in touch with the insane side of me; getting negative, emotional and moody.... for no rhyme or reason...

Excellent! That's a good start towards being truely insane.

I would like to think that I do not have split personality or wierd emotional mood swings. That's not true.

I had analysed and concluded that all these happen due to the fact that I think too much and too deeply into anything and everything and try to reason with myself to see different angles of looking at things.

Arggh! Can I stop thinking so much? I think its just me to do that...

Now on the way to work and having the kind of mixed feelings. Feeling glad that I have something to occupy my mind and sad coz I have less time to think and reason with myself...

See, thats insanity...

Cheers!

Quote: "Humans start becoming stupid the moment they stop thinking"

I'm JasunZ, Without Wax ~ Since 1982