Emotions

Lets blog about emotions...

To start of this blog, I shall present this song that is constantly ringing at the back of my head now.

Michael Learns To Rock - Breaking My Heart
I’m on the floor
Counting one minute more
No one to break the silence
Staring into the night
All alone but that’s alright
It’s the feeling deep inside I don’t like

There is no excuse my friend
For breaking my heart
Breaking my heart again
This is where our journey ends
You’re breaking my heart again

Here in my bed
Counting the words you’ve said
They linger in the shadows
Coming home late at night
Drunk again but that’s alright
It’s the look in your eyes I don’t like

There is no excuse my friend
For breaking my heart
Breaking my heart again
This is where our journey ends
You’re breaking my heart again

There is no excuse my friend
For breaking my heart
Breaking my heart again
This is where our journey ends
You’re breaking my heart again

Not too sure why but the song just keep going on in my head. This all familiar tune that used to play from my old walkman. It seems like only yesterday when I got MLTR cassette tape and was so happy to listen to it. How time flies and here we are now in the world of mp3s.

Since 1982... It has been nearly 24 yrs and how many more years to go? I do not know. People around had come and gone. Life had changed over and over and over again. I'm still in my usual self of being able to fall into depression almost immediately. I'm still trying to find out the reason why. I hate this feeling but guess I got to live with it. It is like a curse on me, always around me, unwilling to leave.

No prize for guessing. I'm in another depression now. Just so sudden, I guess I know the reason or perhaps that's not the reason. I hope it doesn't stay too long.

Ally asked me to go Velvet but I decide to stay at home instead. Coz it ain't good to go drinking when you are down. Doesn't help and I might even get myself into more problems that only escalates.

What a way to spend a weekend? Lying on my comfy bed from 7.30pm onwards, staring into the TV Screen with nothing absorbed except for the occasion drooling when Fiona Xie appears. Haha. Utter nonsense.

I got nothing on for tomorrow as well. Initially was suppose to go play soccer but think it is cancelled now. Hope the MJ is on as it's the only thing that keeps me going this weekend and of course not forgetting that BIG MATCH on Sunday. Weekends...

I will try to play some happy games online later in hope that it will bring me some senseless fun and simple joy. This will hopefully easemy pain and sufferings.

Shall end here and look forward to a better tomorrow.

Quote: "It's how you deal with failure that determines how you achieve success." ~ David Feherty

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~
JasunZ, Without Wax

Facets of Life

I should blog.

Just now went to "Monkey Hill" for lunch and had that nice pig organ soup. It's really a 70s place in this current times. You see old folks strolling around or sitting around aimlessly, waiting for sometime. In the far corner, there is a funeral procession going on, another life ended. The old folks gathered around to pay their friend one last visit before the long trip to the other life.

After lunch, took a short walk to People's Park and had dessert there. Although the place is bustling with life, it feels as if I was back to my childhood days where my parents brought me there during Chinese New Year. After dessert, went back to office.

So, what had I been up to recently? Mmm. Nothing much but just lazing around at home on bed switching between channels and absorbing what the media is telling me. Went for a haircut as well. Perhaps Gi had triggered the "need recognition" in me to cut my hair as she had just cut hers as well. Mmm. My hair is kind of short now, comparable to my army days. Another haircut disaster. Haha.

Suppose to meet Gi today but something came up so will not be meeting her. Tomorrow, will be soccer time with the team again and hope the haze is better. Time is running short for me and I got to cherish every moment of it while I still can. So guess I will head straight home after work today and be a good boy today coz I had been naughty recently. Hahaha.

Sorry ger...

Quote: "Sorry, I'm really sorry..." ~Song by William So

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~
JasunZ, Without Wax

Weekend Updates

Must blog must blog!

I shall start with....

Thursday
Was suppose to watch World Trade Center with Ally. Booked the tix but in the end something happened at home and hence have to put her aeroplane and return home first. After settled everything at home, went to meet her at Mosque Street and sent her home shortly.

Friday
TGIF again. Been looking forward to this day the whole freaking week. After work, went to Gi's place to play mj with Jaz & Reuben. 4am plus, went to HK Cafe again to have supper. Had a great laugh there. After that went back and continue till 7.30am in the morning. This is Saturday.

Saturday
Reach home at 8.30am in the morning. Slept till 2.30pm then went to meet Eugene at Khatib and we went to Marina South to play soccer. Soccer was great fun but tiring. Played against a team of Vietnamese. Haha. Like international friendly. Went for dinner after that, went home and KO.

Sunday
Went church in the morning then went Bedok to meet Gi. Went East Coast with Dumbo and Marcos and set them running and swimming in the sea. Had a great time running. After that went back changed and bath before going for Wafer Ice-Cream at East Coast again. Feeling tired, went home to cook myself a bowl of maggie noodles. Now lying on my bed slacking around. Called Gi just now and she didn't sound too good. Mmm... Troubled. Anyway, guess I will sleep kind of early today.

Really had a great weekend. Hehe. Shall look forward to the next weekend again. Going to be another long long week in the office again. But guess time will fly faster with the number of lunch appointments my colleagues are having with me. Hehe.

Cheers!

Quote: "The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can't find them, make them." ~George Bernard Shaw

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~
JasunZ, Without Wax

Poor Days

Let's Blog about Poverty.

I'm Poor and there is no denying it. Overspent too much this month and it's all thanks to the Creative Zen V Plus (2 Gig). I'm still awaiting my dear company to give me back my cash which they owe me and if not, I will be storming to the Accounts and start pasting some stickers of Pig Head. Hahaha.

Last night went to meet Gi and went to Secret Garden for chilling. Met Jaz and Joe there together with Amanda (dun realli know her) and 2 other events people. Haha. It's indeed a secretive place and I shan't spread about where it is but it's definately a nice place to chill and have some desserts.

Haven't been thinking much lately, just taking a mental break as soon all the horrible projects and tutorials will set in. The amount of work to be done for school this quarter is kind of scary and perhaps the heaviest load so far. But guess its a good way to test a person's mettle at the end of the year and end it on a high note.

Will be going for classes at 8.30pm tonight. The same for tomorrow. I've got 3 hours to spare and decided to have a swim at TPY before going for classes. Cooling~

Chatted to Cherlyn over MSN and she complain again that VB is hard and she hate it and regret it. Just contributed my 2 cents worth that what done cannot be undone and no point lamenting over things which you cannot unwind the clock to change. So, got to make the best out of the situation, get it over and done with.

Planning a road trip to KL with Arthur, Stella, Eugene and Gi. Will drive up to KL end of the month and proceed to Highlands. Been like 10 years since I last went there as a kid to the theme park. Will be good to get out of Singapore for a bit to re-charge. I hope to be able to go back Penang end of the year as well to enjoy the nice people and food there. Smilez~

From today onwards till the 26th this month, I shall try to plan something so that I will have an event to look forward to everyday. This will hopefully help time past faster and reduce the agony I'm suffering now. Phew!

I'm really running dry of topics to write about recently and all I blog about are random updates of my life which is not exactly that interesting nowadays. Haiz...

Shall end this post now before all gets crappy and I start unknowingly insult some races, nations or individuals. Muahaha.

That's me!!!

Quote: "The thing about falling in love,is that if you do it right,you never have to hit the ground." ~Kendall Lepitzki

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~
JasunZ, Without Wax

Yet another update

Let's Blog.

So, it's been mentioned that my command of English is not of optimal standard. Hence, from now on, I shall post my blogs in "perfect" english.

Whosdafark? This is a foreign version of WTF. Haha. Suppose I'm being totally random here. Shall start with some updates.

Saturday
Went for lessons as usual. Topic was super dry and had a hard time concentrating. After lessons at 4pm, met Eugene and we went to Marina South for a soccer match. In the end, the opponents did not turn up and we play 7 a side among ourselves.

I suppose the opponent are smarter as the PSI was so bad and shouldn't be playing soccer at all. But to hell, what the heck?

After soccer, went to Chong Pang Nasir Lemak for dinner and went Arthur's house for mj. We took super long to finish one round and finished at around 2+ am.

Sunday
Church as usual and after that went home to sleep. Woke up and had dinner steamboat. Now slacking around doing nothing much. Tomorrow is going to be the start of another week again. What will be in store for me? Mmm. Nobody expect God knows.

Work
Only disappointment can now define work. Perhaps I really made a mistake by being responsible and loyal. Perhaps I was stupid. But no longer. I'm angered. I'm an avenger. They will suffer my wrath. They might not know it now. But the time will come when all will be revealed. I shall lie in waiting....

Quote: "I will always forgive but never forget." ~JasunZ, Without Wax

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~
JasunZ, Without Wax

Life in Recency...

I should blog.

Been getting lazier with each passing day but the weekend was good... not good only but damm good. It was a fully utilized weekend and no time was lost. Yippie...

Saturday
Had a full day lecture but thank God lecture ended earlier. Hanged around Toa Payoh and chatted with Alison for a while before Eugene came to meet me. We were suppose to scout for a soccer tee as we were having a soccer game. None caught our fancy or rather we couldn't find anything that met our budget. Ended up, I bought a white addias tee and we were on our way.

The match was supposed to start at 5pm. We were having a nice time chatting and talking on AYE, looking for an exit to Harbour Front. Next thing we knew, I told Eugene something.

"I have a Bad Feeling..."

Shit. Right we were. We are freaking on the wrong side of AYE and heading towards Jurong. Muahaha. Idiots... 2 Idiots... Headed for the nearest exit and make a turn at NUS. We were that far from Harbour Front.

Time: 4.55pm, match suppose to start at 5pm. We made our turn.

Happily drove and his friend called to tell us that the match is delayed to our relief. Continue driving and we headed for the expressway exit. Well done. Wrong Exit. We were near shenton. Freak! Made an illegal U-Turn and finally reached PSA Club.

After we changed, started to drizzle. Everything went wrong. But in order to fufill the GOAL 2010 dream of Singapore to make it for the World Cup, we carried on playing and in the end lost 4-2 to the PSA team. Anyway, it was a great game.

After we washed up, headed down to Holland Village to watch soccer and while we were there, Eugene saw his beloved Liverpool lost to Bolton. Muahaha.

Time: 9.00pm Eugene sad....

I left Eugene and his friend at Holland V and headed for Cineleisure for a KTV session at KBOX with Gi. 2 of us sang from 9.30pm till 12.30am. I came out with a formula and hopefully will win a Nobel Prize for it...

2 Person + 3 hours of KTV = Sore Throat

We then went home after that.

Sunday
Went to church in the morning. After service, went home straight and hit the sack. Slept till 7pm and woke up. Felt hungry. Called Gi and went to meet her for dinsup.
*** Dinsup = Dinner + Supper

Went for dinsup at HK Cafe near east coast. The mango pudding was nice and the sandwiches were too. But guess I was "Overly" hungry and I did not finish them.

Monday
Its the start of another hell week. Was counting down the clock by the tenth of every second. After work, headed straight home and slacked. Went out to meet Gi for coffee and warpped up the night.

Tuesday
Another day of clock counting. Came home, ate dinner. Went to meet Arthur, Stella and Eugene at Sembawang park. After their dinner, met Malcolm for project discussion. The project this term is really killing and I foresee more late night meetings to settle the project. Haiz.

Wednesday
Woke up with a terrible headache. Decided not going work and slept again. Work up around 11am and felt a bit better. Pop some pills and went sleep again. After waking up, felt bored. So decided to update my blog. While blogging, Cherlyn called me from Aussie and complained to me about her worst day of her life in Aussie. Haiz. Poor thing.

I will be doing a double entry as I attained some inspiration after sleeping for so long. Hehe.

So that's about all. Cheers!

Quote: "To will is to select a goal, determine a course of action that will bring one to that goal, and then hold to that action until the goal is reached. The key is action."~ Michael Hanson

~Nothing is impossible, the impossible just takes longer~
JasunZ, Without Wax